Survival is not Easy!

I have been a victim of domestic crisis for many years yet, I found it is the most hard thing to claim for protection not only in my country but also in other countries. Why? this is the question I couldn't answer in the past perhaps never in future.

I asked protection from many international non - profit organizations but all claimed not to accept individual claims for protection and I always wondered how then? In my home country, non-profit organizations just work for their own benefits or more simply for popularity, and the person in need just wandering in the middle of nowhere. Some individuals are afraid of losing their dignity as well as the family's, and scarifies their lives silently. If you raise a voice and belong to a middle or poor class family, the best they can do is to murder the victim by creating dramas to the poor soul. 

I survived, God knows how? Many years struggling all alone,  my parents and siblings knew that I am right, were against me and my actions for survival. The main reason if I could ever find was, It's a shame to our family. They saw me suffering but not ready to help me. They are afraid of society and the person I was married to. 

And I question, Who are going to give me back those years of my life? Depression, stress, frustration that I was carrying at that time, has affected me tremendously, but, I survived. The main reason I could believe is "hope". When you have hope, when you have courage and when you know you are right, it gives you power and energy to struggle for the truth to find and you are not afraid of being killed or survived at the end. You aim leads you to "do or die", or "now or never". I was in both situation. 

I lives now abroad, but my kids still back their in my home country, I want to have them here with me every bit of second and yet, the question arises again, how? If you ask me "what do you mean how?

My answer could sound silly to you... their passports...

My family still afraid of their father, and he has the passports.. Belonging to a country and family where women does not have any rights, leaves you in the middle of nowhere... But you still have courage to struggle.